Understanding

Before you read on, I’m adding a music aspect to this blog since it’s one of the biggest ways that I seek God. There is a music player to the right, and I want to take a look at the song “Time I Understood” by Wavorly. These are the lyrics:

As I’m building up this house
I wonder what of it will stay
It seems You just take things away
And I’ll admit I shouldn’t say these things
But I have got to hear from You somehow
Does this have a point to it?
God, I wish I could hear You
You said You’d help me through this
I wish You didn’t have to

Why did You take this away? I wanted it
Show me that there is no need to be afraid
Can I move on now that it’s gone?

As I travel down this road
I wonder if I should turn home
All this time I’ve felt alone
My head in my hands
Where were You when I was in need?
And I look back to find You chasing me
Sometimes I try and I miss the point of it
It’s about time we die…we’re not down here for us

Why did You take this away? I wanted it
Show me that there is no need to be afraid
Can I move on now that it’s gone?

As You’re tearing down this house
There is only one thing I can say
I’m so glad You take away
And I’ll admit things worked out for the good
And it’s about time I understood

Why did I pick this song? It has really spoken to me lately because I’ve been fighting with the fact that sometimes I don’t understand. God has a funny way of completely turning everything around just when I get comfortable with it, and I have no idea why.

From personal experience, I’ve found that when God takes away, it’s hard to rejoice. It’s just not in my nature to give thanks when something I love is pulled away from me. I never comprehend why God does such things while they are happening.

It’s times like these that I tend to wrestle with God. I spent many hours crying out to Him, pleading for answers, but my thoughts were too loud for me to hear what He wanted to tell me. When I finally calmed down, I realized exactly what He was doing. The past few hours were the reason He took away from me. I spent more time talking to God in those few hours than I had in the past year. He poured His heart out to me that night, and I saw grace once again.

You need to know that God wants to be with you. You read right, the Creator of the Universe wants to have a personal relationship with you, and He will seek you out until you open your eyes and realize that fact. He gave up His son for us because of His amazing love, and we didn’t even deserve it.

God knows what’s best for us, and once in a while, it’s the exact opposite of what we think is best for ourselves. Sometimes God has to do something drastic to pull my attention back to where He knows it should be. It’s the place that I as His child knows my gaze should be as well, and it’s about time I understood.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.  I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity.” Jeremiah 29:11-14